I am taking a deep breath and I let myself be led by my fear and my joy to write this article. I open up the space in the back of my neck to let the unnknown flow through me and create.
This is the story of how I anatomized the believe in me that in order to live my culture and do my experiments I would have to live far far away in a cabin in the woods. This is also the story of how I for the first time met the reseiding deity of the space that I live in and it is the story of how I used the bright principle of collaboration to create a magical doorway to Next Culture and a space of NextCulture and ArchyArchy. You might ask the question what are Next Culture and ArchyArchy? I have a hunch a part of you already knows because it led you here. And this website is full of doorways that are waiting for you to go through and step into.
Here is what happened.
Discovery. I was in a Q&A Space with a number of wild and courageous edgeworkers created and held by Clinton Callahan and Anne-Chloé Destremeau about "Woman, Men & Patriarchy". It was a vibrating and transformative space. Close to the end of the call I felt the need to share about my believe that in order to escape patriarchy and in this case especially abuse I would have to go and live alone in the forests. I was met with the clarity of Clinton Callahan. By letting it into my system it anatomized my believe and created space for something new. I went into liquid state and expanded my boy. My new believe serves my being and archetypal lineage. It goes something like this: I am centered. I have my grounding chord and bubble and I take my distinctions and culture with me. Anywhere I go. I am a radiantNextculture5bodyTransformationSuperSpreader.
This is what also happened.
Transformation. My box and Gremlin are a great team in sabotaging my discoveries and dragging me away from the edge. I felt fear about forgetting what I had just learned and I felt sadness and anger about the discoveries I had already forgotten. I could feel my Gremlin starting to mix feelings to make myself feel confused and paralyzed. Then I said NO to that. I clenched my fists and jaw and I consciously called in my anger. I needed 20% of my anger. I said No to sabotging myself into forgetting and Yes to integrating what I had just discovered and I went from paralyzed into action. I took my Gremlin on a leash! This is conscious anger work! I created a reminder for my front door. Here is what it says!
The intelligence of my feelings and my energetic body. I pinned it at my door and while doing so my fear talked to me again. It said: Tara the residing deity of this place will not accept your reminder. It will disappear into the wood of the door for you and it will appear unfitting and weird for other people coming to you space because it doesn´t go with the energy of the residing deity of the space." I was astonished by the intelligence of my own feelings and energetic body. I said: Thank you fear! Then I looked up to my door frame. I recollected my intellectual and energetical knowlegde about residing deities that I have gathered throughout my life and in the weekly study group for the 5bodytransformational book called "Radiant Joy Brilliant Love" by Clinton Callahan and greeted the residing deity of the space. I said Hello and asked it to reveal itself. He greeted me back. His name is "der lange graue Herr" and this is what he looks like.
Where I was. I was living in an energetical place of cigarette smoke and intellectual/political discussion, hierarchy and win/loose games.It was full with knowlegde but empty of feelings and it was brimming with a painful loneliness.
pirate agreements. I looked up and asked " What do I have to do for you so that in return I can put up my reminder on this door and it will not be swallowed into the wood". He took time to think. We stood there a while, looking at eachother. Then I spoke and I said: "I m going to transform this place into a place of Next Culture and ArchyArchy. What can I do for you to to collaborate with me in doing so?" He looked at me, thinking again. The answer came. "Do a deep clean up and clear out of this space" I was suddenly very aware of all the things around me that cluttered and confused the space and also of how neglected it was. I said "Yes, I will do that" I felt my fear coming up and I comitted to this pirate agreement.
a magical doorway. I felt a shift. My skin was tingling and my heartbeat fastened and I felt this woooshing sensation all around me. Der lange graue Herr looked at me expectantly. And again I spoke without knowing what I would say. "Do you want to create an energetic door to Next Culture with me ?" He didn´t think about it and said Yes. He started from the top of the doorframe and I started from the bottom to meet in the middle and build this golden glimmering, energetic door right inside the doorframe of my entrance door. And then we weaved distinctions into the field of the door. They looked like bright colorfull energetic yarns that tightented the golden net. They were the distinctions of Gremlin, High Drama and Low Drama, emotions and feelings, conscious and unconscious feelings, responsible adult ego state and child-, parents-, and gremlin ego state. The distinction of the different I´s and the distinction of being centered. I said: I am going to call in my bright principles and form a golden space from the doorframe through my apartment. I called in my bright principles of Love, Transformation and Clarity and declared the apartment a golden space of NextCulture and ArchyArchy and it worked!
leaving sparkles.The door has the magic capability to leave little golden and colorfull sparkles on everyone stepping through it and near it. They are super sticky and unwashable.
next steps. I am inhabting and holding a Next Culture space now. I will follow my comittment to the deity of the space. I will put up dangerous questions and reminders that cross over the bridge from energetic body to intellectual and physical body in my apartment. I will work with the distinctions in the space by asking people that are entering how they feel in their 5 bodys and by offering a centering experiment to them. I will go out into modern culture and patriarchy, centered, connected to GaÏa, bubbled in my own space, energy and culture, my Gremlin on a leash and be a radiantNextCulture5bodyTransformationSuperSpreader.
Thank you for your attention!
I welcome questions!
Love,
Tara
